everyone is hiding their real feelings. ha. and i think i am the only stupid one who goes around telling everyone how i feel. i guess that it quite stupid. ahh. how i wish i was back in china. and you left for somewhere so far. i hope i could see you before you left. you didnt give me the chance to. =( how i hope i can see you. stop being so naive yile. not everyone thinks the same way as you. stop looking at the world like an idiot. you think you are so correct but then you are not. dun be so stupid yile. people ask me why i am always so happy. what should i tell them then? i dun even know the answer myself. why am i so happy? when everything seems interesting to you, actually it may mean that nothing is interesting to you. then if i am always happy, does that make me actually always unhappy? or is it just a habit of mine to be happy and just forget everything?? is that the reason that i have a habit of forgetting everything? and since in dun try remembering. it just goes on. i really need someone to support me through this few years. you noe the person is you. but u wun be reading this and forever wun read this. i really need you. where are you then? how can you leave me in this mess. how can you? the world is so fake. i need you to guide me. tell me what's real. yes. i need you to guide me. please guide me along. i'll have a hard time, but i guess i'll manage.
