haish. sometimes, things get ridiculously out of control. and it's REALLY ridiculous. you dun even know, what exactly happened. and sometimes, it just made you think, negative abt yourself.
i mean, yea i like to gossip i like to listen to gossip i like to tell other ppl gossip, i know it's not really good or pleasant! kehh. yea i know it's my fault, it's my fault. my mouth is too big. i talk without thinking. i talk very loudly. i say stuff that are not meant to be said. and well, i just suddenly thought yile's mouth is a lil yucky. from what i know now, i seriously know that GOSSIPing is not good, and i WILL stop. but then. i wouldnt say anything that i wasnt sure of. if i didnt have concrete proof that it would be this way, i wouldnt say a word. it's not like, i pass false GOSSIP around, and well. it's just plain chatting. i just like to share things that i know with my friends. or maybe even. know them simply for my own pleasure. however, if this causes hurt, hate, other gossips, or anything mean, I GIVE UP. i will stop. i just dun like how things might turn out due to this.
well. i like to chat. i like to talk. as long as i can talk to the person nicely without being awkward, i wont stop. and well. it's kinda weird, how talking might lead to weird complications?? i dunnoe. but it seems like it's getting a lil out of hand. i wanna say, i dun like what ppl think when i do talk to people that erm, maybe i shouldnt really be talking a lot to, or maybe just what some ppl think i shouldnt talk to. it's kinda sucky to hear about other ppl talking about you behind your back and whatever shit. it's really bad, and i totally hate it. i know it's just a personal matter, but it really struck me, not in a very negative way, but well. it made me realise how bad my mouth was. okay. i will stop talking abt other people too much like how i used to. however, i still remain the rights to say anything that i want to!
cause now i know. words spread like a forest fire, it's super fast, and before you know it the whole forest's gone. i realise also. sometimes things doesnt turn out the way you intend it to be. dad used to tell me about this using the example of study corners, and i was amused. but now i'm not. the point's valid. now it bugs me. totally. it;s when can tells me everything that i know. maybe stuff really gets passed ard real fast. it's weird. cause i dun really like people thinking of this kind of stuff abt me. and now. i finally realise. what i was doing previously. it hurts. although it doesnt hurt me, it kinda bothers me, not in a good way. so, yes. i hope ths misunderstandingS would be cleared soon, and there would be no weird stuff passing ard, that even can questions me? i tell you seriously, it wouldnt end the way you all thought it would be. trust me.
give me a break. and nth to spoil my name. thankew.
