you know sometimes time fly past so fast, its nearly the end of the year for us. i mean, after 3+ years of getting use to a big crowded place, its time we move on again. today was our last photog session. and mrtee asked us what was our amibition. to lead a happy life. was sorta my reply.
he defined what you want to be as a dream, but he defined ambition as to do be doing something that no one has ever done before, because we are actually shaped by our amibiton.
he said to be happy isnt strong enough, happiness is just a state of mind. but sometimes, you have to realise, everything you aim for, at the end of the day. is something that makes you happy.
I dun want to be some big shot, make it big and forget what real happiness is. Neither do i want to do something till I am the best, because stress comes in after that. He said to leave a mark in your own life, for yourself to create memories that you are fond of. but then at the end of your life, when u look back. so what if you did achieve that much. at the end of the day, we still have to leave this world with what we came with. which is nothing.
so it brings me to the point that, i think happiness is the most impt thing in the world. even if it is just a state of mind. because you might be 一事无成 at the end of your 100 years of live or shorter, but you can be happy being a 一事无成 chap. you can be contented with living your life without big ambitions, because so what if amibitions have defined you?
happiness being a state of mind, can never be fulfilled. i just hope to be free from what bounds us to life. if we have an amibition, in a negative way we are DRIVEN by our amibition.
you get what i mean. i just wanna say. sometimes, ppl need to learn to accept failures, and do not regret even if u did not put in your best, or rather not live up to your own expectations. because regrets does far less than making you feel bad. and sometimes, do much lesser without expectations, and you might just see yourself feeling good about things.
for now, make as much mistakes as you can and get away with it, because in future you wun be let off so easily.
ALAMAK. i am not making sense. whatever.
i just wanna be happy. a simple life. get married and get a couple of kids. make sure my kid gets the best care, and definitely LOVE. and let my life revolve around my kids. be contented with seeing them grow up. and love them with all my heart.
sometimes, the most ambitious people can get the most cruel and heartless. sometimes, the simplest chore can be the most difficult. sometimes,you just have to settle down and make sacrifices for other people.
if everyone was to have a amibition as big as [inserts random 伟人's name], the world would be chaotic.
stay happy(:
anyways, was watching 金田一. really interesting. xD but nothing much to say about the male lead. ): LOLs.
and a sidenote. ccs and jbr won! okay i know this is outdated info. but (: i'm happy!
